I've been researching what is necessary to set up a business online and setting up a domain, website, etc. and it's mind boggling for a "tech-a-phobe" like me. I can play with setting up the colors, dimensions, fonts, and layouts. That part is fun and easily enough falls to the part of my brain I use most often for my work. The terminology, addresses (url, rss, and who knows what else), and failed connections are what do me in. I really need a geek to push me forward here. This is an adventure unlike any I've taken before.
Since I'm in a rambling frame of mind today, the term geek.... I remember being referred to as a geek in school and it certainly wasn't used endearingly. Somewhere along the line, though, I learned to embrace my inner geek. The part of me that isn't quite in step with the world around me. The rest of the world swirls around things that I'm just not that interested in or focused on. I definitely step to the tune of another drummer.
One of my more recent friends recently told me one of the things she likes about me is waiting to see where my brain was going to take me when presented with an idea. She said it's always an adventure as she would wait to see where I headed. Maybe that's part of the reason my husband always feels he has to watch over me and protect and order my life. He knows I'm likely to be in my own little world not fully aware of what everyone around me expects. Given a chance to attack anything with creativity, I'll take it. Why look at anything without exploring more of its possibilities? I use that for beading, decorating, and anything else I get to take a little time to think about. It's fun, it's challenging, and probably possible because I have Rich to be Mr. Logic and usher me along when I need it (and even some times that I don't. And that, my friends, can be annoying).
So, that young girl who used to feel left out and friendless has learned to embrace the outsider in her. It supplies me with wonderful ideas for my jewelry. It makes me who I am and has brought me very special friends that encourage and support my quirkiness. I don't have to be part of the norm the way my sisters are. I stand out (not a comfortable thing for this recluse) from the rest of my family and the world, but I'm finally comfortable in my own skin.
I'm glad geek no longer has a negative connotation. I'll continue to embrace the bead geek I've become. I'll keep looking at the world through a skewed looking glass and have fun with the results.
